My Thanksgiving

I am thankful for a lot of things. I am thankful that I was able to spend time with my family this Thanksgiving holiday. There have been a few years when I had to celebrate by myself, 1998 and 2001, but this time I flew in on Thanksgiving Day to New Orleans and drove to Baton Rouge. It was perfect; when I arrived the food was all done. All I had to do was fix my plate. The holidays are not the same since not all of my family was not there. It is so much better when all of my family gets together, young and old. But I am not even sure when that day will ever come again, being that a few of us are living across the country and in the military. If I could ever wish for anything, that would be the one thing I would want, all of my family to get together. Makes me want a big family of my own.

But I did return sick. Seems like when I stepped off the plane something happen. But I knew that I was coming down with something. Now my sinus' are all stuffed. I need someone to really take care of me. I am hoping that tomorrow I can go to medical and they can give me SIR.

Now it's back to classes, back to work, basically back to reality. I have so much work that is due and coming to a close I have to remain focused and get these things done. But it's now Army Week and I hope that I don't attacked, but if so, oh well...

If I become famous...

Last night I had the privilege to sing in front of an audience again. I sang with the Gospel Choir again, and I got nervous when I found out at the last minute that I had to sing Psalms 23. I know the song, and must have sung it I don't know how many times, but every time I sing it, I criticize my performance. Despite being told that I am a really good singer, and being comfortable with my voice, I am still my worst critic. If there were anything that I would want God to do, it would be to give me confidence. I guess that I want to switch the song up a bit, and that is the problem because I kind of getting tired of singing it the same way.

But in other music news, Rudy, Kasisi, and I are still in the "studio" working out music. We are working on this one song that has yet to be completed. It's cool because I had a hand a writing. I am really wondering if I have some destiny in music. Maybe one day, Lord willing.

Now what... what should I have done? (Gwendolyn Brooks)

Today's discussion got pretty good when discussing Gwendolyn Brooks. I believe Ben did a good job of covering his author. I think the discussion was one of the best we had; mostly the latter part where we were discussing "Maud and Sadie", and the "a song in the front yard", and the idea of bad women and girls wanting to behave badly. From a male point of view, I've been in the front and the back yard. Which do I prefer? Well a lot of people think that I play in the front yard and think that I'm just a really good person, but I've played in the back yard before where it get really urban and rugged. I mean, that's life, you adapt.

Furthermore... (new topic)

Silence. Maybe it's one of my biggest down falls. I was a lil bit too quiet this afternoon. Well I should have initiated friendly conversation, than just seem uninterested. But... I don't know. I was told there is drama in silence. So true. When someone is very silent, you're trying to figure out the cause of it and possibly what could be going on in that person's thoughts. If you don't understand, I guess you had to be there.....where were you at twenty till 3?

So what's been up....

I have basically fallen prey to academics and have spent less time worrying about my blog. But its cool, I still care. I had a talk with Capt. today and she sort of motivated me to get a little more involved in the company. She told me that I am going to do NAPS detail this summer and also a fleet cruise. She said that I have a say in the company and that I need to speak up and make my voice heard. She was right about that, so that has inspired me to do something.

Apart from that, I haven't been doing nothing really but spending money, shopping and dining out. I still the spending habits as if I am still collecting a big check from the Navy. No, no no, I wish I was. But anyways, what else... I am still single. That hasn't changed. A lot of projects and papers are facing me due to the close of the semester. So I have a lot of things to prepare. I have really got to boost my grades. For one, I have to cut back my time on the computer. If I can manage that, I could accomplish a hell of a lot of work. But...when grades come out, we'll see how things move. As of now, I am pressing for Thanksgiving holidays. Can't wait.